confession of a dreamer ♥

4.17.2009

TRUST. BELIEVE. MY. FUTURE.

well, since my cousin's started to wonder, is it possible to go to japan?", it kinda effected me as well.

lately i've been thinking, i know i really love keito, but is it really possible? i really want to go to japan, and that's not only because keito, i really WANT to go there and study. no, it's not WANT. i HAVE TO. i MUST go there. i WILL go there. together with my cousin, dea.

japan seems to be a very nice country. i won't care if i have to stay at six tatamis sized apartment. ohmyy, keito, i really love you. don't blame me. it's because you're so goddamn cute and sexy (your voice, i mean :P) and there's not three better words to describe my feelings to you than I LOVE YOU. because I DO. i don't know whether this is just a fangirl feeling or.. you know... the real love?? haha. okey, the second one might not be possible. to be honest, i've already forgotten the feelings when you like people, i mean, like a girl likes a boy as her boyfriend or something. I'VE ALREADY FORGOTTEN THAT OKAY! believe it or not. i just don't care anymore, it's been more than a year since the last time a have crush on boys, and now i've decided that it's better to have crush on keito :D hahahah.

so, the point is, i don't care about people's opinion anymore. it's just me, okay? you don't agree with me? fine. go with what you think is right and true. hate me or like me, it's that simple. i don't wanna be in the world where i have to get any permissions to do what i wanna do, what i like. you think having crush on j-pop artists are strange? k. it's just that i don't. if you think dreaming about going to be with our idol is IMPOSSIBLE, note this: I DON'T THINK SO. and hey, why bother thinking about what's possible and not? it makes me happy anyway. and that's all matters for me, nah. and why bother about our future? it wastes time. we shouldn't worry about it, we should fight for it. nah, come to think of it, i can also be wise. hohoho.

i trust and i believe in my future :D
(being optimistic isn't that bad, you know)
XOXO,
valya okamoto :D

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