5.17.2009

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE MY DRUGS?



KEITOOOOOO!!!
sometimes i wonder why i'm so addicted to you.
i love you more than just an idol, surely more than that.
i just know it.
hey, listen, dude...
the first time i saw you, i think you're cute.
the second time, i felt like facing my fate.
and somehow, i couldn't resist you anymore.
you are my life.
mu hunger, my thirst... my heaven on earth...
all my needs, all my happiness, all my sorrow
to live a day without thinking about you even once is like hell to me.
somehow i want to make you be there in my mind, every single minute in my day.
but to know that you're unreachable, impossible to be reach...
that hurts more than anything.
in this world of certainty, i doubt everything but my feelings for you.
i didn't mean to make you this meaningful to me.
it's fate which did it.
i don't want to admit that you live in a totally different world from me.
i feel like, "now, what are you doing? do you know that in a far, far away country, there's someone who cares about you even about the smallest thing?"
i want to see your face.
when i miss you, i want you to be here beside me.
but then i think that it's impossible to come true.
and my loneliness will become even worse.
so it would be harder to me if when i'm feeling lonely, i watch you on my ipod.
then i don't know what would do.
keito,
you make me happy.
and in the same time you make me sorrowful as well.
when i'm sad, i need you.
then you'll brighten my world for a bit.
and you'll make me even more sad.
that's unfair.
'cause it's like drug.
i need it but the more i use it, the more it kills me.
slowly but surely.
of course you don't kill me.
but i need you badly.
now i'm feelin' melancholy.
but i'm so addicted to you that even you kills me little by little,
i will still love you.
that's something that will never change.
it's different from before.
i can't let you go.
loving you is torturing but to not knowing you is even worse.
i hope nothing will change.
that's enough for me.



gilaaaa gw puitis bgt yaaa >.<
but it's true, however.
i can't say it better. it's the true feelings i feel.
i'm happy just the way it is.



XOXO
valya okamoto :D

by valya :) at 14:58 |